Celia de Molina (Linares, 41 years old) always liked to ride movies. “When Natalia was born, the video camera also arrived home, she was my actress, we made a ride of incredible videos,” he recalls referring to her little sister, actress Natalia de Molina, with whom she has never stopped working. Natalia acted in The antivlog, Webserie created by Celia in 2016 that has now recovered Filmin, and also participates in Quarantine, Short film nominated for Goya and prelude to what will be the first length of the author, It is not universal. “The antivlog He arrived too soon, there were no conversations like now. It is a deeply feminist series that puts on the table, using the parody of sarcasm, the absurd that women have to be perfect, I talked about harassment … Before Metoo. I think it is now more current and would have a better reception. At that time I said: ‘I am a feminist’ and it was like ‘uff, feminist, you are crazy, ”he recalls. In fact, the criticisms received that they considered throwing in the towel. “They didn’t take me seriously, they crushed me. They did not give me opportunities, they told me: ‘Who do you think you are?’ I suffered a lot. If it had been an uncle they would have given me a series or a Magacin program … ”, he laments. But from Molina, who defines himself as “diguitriz” (director, screenwriter and actress), did not give up and thus born Quarantine, A short film in which one friend tells another in a cafeteria, while engulfing a cross, the details of her childbirth. It is based on the creator’s experience with her first child.
“There were times when I thought I was going to die,” says the protagonist (played by Andrea Ros). Did you feel that?
Yes, and over time I have realized that a lot of what I suffered was what is called obstetric violence. But I didn’t know anything. I had very idealized childbirth, I thought it was going to be the best day of my life. And the shock Traumatic was tremendous, although at that time I did not know what was happening. I had prepared for a natural birth, I wanted to feel the contractions … and my childbirth was full of complications.
Did the story write to not forget it, not to sweeten it?
I wanted to tell a friend, to be able to say that she had been deceived. And I used fiction. It is a completely true person story. In the festivals women approach me and their experiences tell me. Each birth is a world.
Its protagonist says that he is ashamed to say what he thinks about social pressure, to recognize that “it was hell.”
It is something that is breaking in recent years a little because there are many women who are talking about it since there is dissemination. You think it’s you, you’re wrong.
Is everything judged too much about motherhood?
Yes, we are very alone. Do not tell it, there is much frustration. And when you talk about it, a plug opens and a thousand experiences come out. A little as it has also happened with harassment, that you start talking to girls and they tell you that “anything has never happened to me” and you scan a little and experience experiences.
Its protagonist feels bad for not being able to carry out his dream delivery … Does guilt weigh too much?
Totally, in fact that anger took me to this short. I had prepared everything, but it may happen that you can’t do what you thought and nothing happens, you are not a worse mother, it is not worth … can leave a thousand ways. But guilt is there, because you think it depends on you, they have taught you that everything is your something … I remember that the first day I gave my son a bottle of artificial milk I cried for guilt, I felt bad about Do not endure the pain of breastfeeding for social pressure. I thought: “I am shit, I do not use as a mother.”
More and more is spoken in the audiovisual of that face B of motherhood in general.
You are talking more, fortunately, because we are talking more. For me there are two important things. One, that the quotas work, that is, that if women are accessing to be able to direct our own films it is because by law quotas are established. If not, we never enter. And two, which told me: “talk about maternity, how heavy!” But how am I not going to talk about this? If it is something that crosses you, it opens in channel, it changes your brain … forgive, how many drug trafficking films are there?
Now he prepares his first feature film, ‘It is not universal’, which precisely tells the story of a filmmaker who wants to make a series about postpartum, Post Party, that nobody finances him because “it is not a universal issue.” What are they?
What we have accepted as universal is to talk about Manolo’s eggs on the table, Manolo’s relationship with women, the femme fatale, A drug trafficking story … However, talking about a mother says that it is not universal … We have accepted that vision, it has to do with history, with patriarchy and with the male look about art and about women, about women, that has always been subject.
The length also part of his experience.
Through humor, comedy and the Ironizo absurd and make a film in which ridiculous how absurd that is to say that birth is not universal when there is no one who has not lived a birth, even if it is his. I do not make a joke humor. My humor is linked to what hurts me. It is my way of surviving and digesting things. I make a registered one, it is like a cry that becomes laughter. But with comedy there is a lot of prejudice, and if you are a woman, I don’t even tell you.